I'm not even the one having surgery, and yet I've got enough anxiety for any five people. I'm already running around trying to get things ready, and see if I can figure out how to slap some blog posts up while I'm taking care of The Mate and just worrying in general.
Instead of a one-track mind, I think I have a billion-track mind. So many things are running around in my brain that I can't seem to pin any of them down. I've finally decided to sit down tonight and do something for me, so I'm getting a little swatching in before I paint my nails and try to sleep. We've both done some work with the dogs, and Missy is having a rough night (could it be she is sensing our stress?), so she is crated and Lassie is put away. More about that later. In fact, more about a lot of things after the jump.
I know The Mate is nervous about this surgery, because even though we've been through it before, it's still a pretty serious thing. The risks are high, and it's not going to fix everything, but if it can ease some of it, that's progress. Until they come up with a way to replace his spine completely, he is likely going to keep needing these every few years. And each time there's a risk of paralysis. infection, nerve damage, and so on. Is it any wonder we're anxious?
I'm also running a lot of things through my mind regarding the blog. For example, do I split it off into two blogs, and have one for the polish, and one for the other stuff, which is mostly animals? Do I include the personal stuff with the rescue animals or with the polish? Do I continue to keep it all together here, since this is pretty much about me anyway, and while I would like to please my readers, I started this for me more than for others? Or should I break things up even more and make it three blogs? Could I even hope to keep up with three?
Oh, and I sort of want to redesign the blog, but when will I have time for that? I'm not even keeping up with my regular stuff now, if I add more it will be nigh impossible. There is just so much I need to do, and I'm not sure I'll ever get it all done. It's hard to prioritize what is most important after The Mate and the critters. And I know I should be finding time for me, but I usually don't. Not that I completely abandon all my needs, but sometimes I let my wants fall by the wayside. And really, I don't mind that for the most part, because a big part of my wants are for everybody here to be happy.
I'm going to close this off now, before I get all maudlin, or get carried away. And I am going to watch Mamma Mia and sing along at the top of my lungs.